Yes, I randomly clicked through channels just in time to catch Rocky Horror on my favourite song of the movie, "Sweet Transvestite". Tim Curry never fails to amaze me in this role. It's a good segway from the main movie event of the evening. My roommate and I went to see Paranormal Activity 3, and it actually was more disturbing than the last one. It shook me up more than I thought it would. We clung to each other the whole time! There's something about children being involved in scary movies that just makes it more gut-wrenching.
Anyway, on this lovely Halloween-ish weekend, I'm busy spending my time inside, writing a crappy blog entry while listening to the sound of my keyboard. I would be watching something lighthearted, but my roommate is trying to write something and doesn't want to listen to noise. So reluctantly, I let her have her way, and suffer my mind's twisted delusions of demon/ghosts and their inevitable haunting prescense in my house. Yeah, scary movies do that to me. I don't know if it's paranoia, but when I see something like that it stays in my head until I use something else to get it out. Right now I can't have anything to get it out of my head, so in it stays, and so stays my paranoia.
I was so lonely and bored today that I spent the whole day out running errands with my mom and brother. I know, it was Saturday, and two days to Halloween, and while most teens are either sleeping all day so they can party all night, I was running around downtown getting groceries and cat food. Have I skipped being a stupid teenager altogether? Boyfriend and I are considering getting married in the near future, which is, in my opinion, devastatingly romantic. Sure, getting married at age 20 to someone you've barely met sounds like a stupid idea, and the only reason I'd ever end up doing it is if I happened to get pregnant accidentally. But the thought of it is also so romantic and sensual that I want to have it. I want to have that picture of me in a white dress, I want the ring on my finger, I want the status of being commited. But is it the right thing to do? As I've said in previous entries, I'm "newly" single, and now that Boyfriend has appeared, I don't know what to call myself. I mean, in the event that someone asks me out on a date (which obviously will never happen anyway, at least it hasn't happened yet and I'm already 19), do I say no, "I have a boyfriend" or "Sure, I'm not seeing anyone"? I honestly don't know, in this situation. And the idea of having a fiancee that doesn't live in the country isn't exactly appealing, either. I wish we were able to do this...simply. Boyfriend has offered to move here permanently in the next couple years. But do I want to be stuck in a relationship that is strictly online, besides a couple of expensive visits every 6 months or so for the personal stuff (getting engaged, getting married, then moving), for a couple years? I've had someone in the past tell me that they promised never to leave me, to come out to live with me, and he lived a lot closer to me than Boyfriend does. I even have our status on Facebook, which I was strongly against, because we -aren't- able to be together. It's hard to call Boyfriend my boyfriend, even though that's his blog name now, since he's just not here. It's hard to have a boyfriend who chats with you on msn/yahoo/Facebook, and keeps in touch via heartfelt wall posts, offline messages, and youtube videos of love songs in which I am frequently "tagged". Is that any way to have a relationship, to continue any kind of romantic involvement? I mean, we've never actually met. I know the feelings are real, but how can I say I'm in love with someone I only know over text and the occaisional video chat?
Anyway, with all these questions, it'd be easy to see how I'm quite confused. I'll go on about my day instead. That's about enough of all that whining.
I bought some groceries (under budget, yay), and my mom had to go drop off some frozen salmon at the cannery we have in town. The woman behind the counter offered us a sample of the candied salmon which my mom was unsure of getting, and it was fabulous! Such an incredibly flavourful bite. Needless to say, my mom has now ordered 10 lbs of the fresh salmon be candied (which of course, after the dehydration and candy process, will leave us with about 4 rich lbs)! I'm delighted, and even more so at the offer of a pound of it for our freezer where I live now. Yay!
Then of course, I bought cat food, which was about half the cost of my groceries, since I won't feed them anything less than premium wet/dry food. The man at the pet store I prefer knows me now, and always remarks my kitties are lucky that I buy them the best of the best (the best that they enjoy, anyway). I'm quite proud of the diet I have them on, though for a while the kibble was grainfree and caused them to be constantly looking for food. So they're now on a different kibble, and I hope it'll do well for them.
After that came PA3, which I already discussed.
Lyric: .... look above. I don't want to do another one.
Quote: "Any of you like to Madison?" - Brad, RHPS
Picture: An edited (poor quality, as it was taken on my phone) pic of myself and my kitty cat, Pheeny.
that's my rant for tonight. Talk to you tomorrow, un-readers.
