Best of 2012 Tag

I was watching youtube as always and saw this new tag, Best of 2012, created by Bethany of Macbarbie07 on youtube. Even though I don't make videos, I wanted to give this one a go, so I'm going to fill out the categories here.

 My Favorite....

BEAUTY:
1. Face product
2. Cheek product
3. Eye product
4. Lip Product
5. Skincare Product
6. Nail Polish
7. Hair product
8. Body product/Perfume

FASHION
9. Clothing piece
10. Accessory
11. Pair of shoes

RANDOM
12. Favorite TV Show/Movie
13. Favorite book
14. Food
15. Beverage
16. Favorite song

Okay, so I'm going to start with Beauty.

My favourite face product would probably be my foundation, I guess. I recently got a new stippling brush for Christmas and I'm enjoying applying my foundation with that. It's amazing how different the finish of one foundation can appear when applied with hands, a sponge, or a brush. 

Favourite cheek product...now I don't usually use blush, highlighter, etc. So I guess I'll put Nyx's stay matte but not flat powder in this category. Yeah, it's a powder foundation, but I don't care, it's awesome. It's a recent discovery; I've only been using it for a few months, and it's not really a NEW thing, but I love it.

Favourite eye product would have to be the Maybelline Limited Edition 24 hour Color Tattoo in Barely Beige. I use this pretty much every day. It's a gorgeous color, goes on opaque, and makes any shadow you put on top of it stay all day. I can get away with wearing it alone too if I just want a light wash of color. All the color tattoos are awesome - I have about ten of them, and my second fave is one from their permanent line called Bad To The Bronze. It's another gorgeous color. I don't know that they last 24 hours, but I don't wear them that long anyway. Occasionally if I forget to wash my face before going to bed, I'll wake up in the morning and I'll still be able to see the cream shadow I had applied probably 24 hours before. So it really does last.

Now for lips. I don't really do a whole lot with my lips, since they're so small and don't really wear lipstick well...I'm not sure what it is but lipstick never seems to last on me. Anyway, my favourite product would have to be a three way tie. Sorry guys, but I really couldn't choose just one. The first is Revlon's Just Bitten Kissable Balm Stain. My favourite color is Honey, which is probably the most popular and wearable of the whole line. These really do last; I've worn a brighter color before and had it last all day. Second would be Revlon's super lustrous lipstick in Primrose. It's a cool tone pink - how awesome is that? Usually pinks look weird on me and make the redness in my face even more prominent. But this one doesn't have that effect. Love it! Okay, the third product would be Nyx's lipglosses. Again, not something new and exciting, but I've recently been playing around with them (past couple months or so) and am loving Sugarpie and Beige (which is actually a deeper pink color). They're opaque, not sticky, and smell great.

Skincare is something that I have some trouble with. I have sensitive skin, prone to zits on my chin, and lots of redness in my cheeks. It's hard to find a product that either absorbs into my skin right, doesn't break it out, doesn't burn, doesn't smell so strongly that I get a headache. Again, we have a tie. I've been using the Clean N Clear Morning Burst cleanser to wash my face, and it's been amazing. I was using another cleanser previously and it really broke me out. This one cleared up that issue and makes my skin feel so soft! For moisturizer, I picked up Simple moisturizer, since it said it was all natural etc. So far it's done really well. And makeup remover - Neutrogena Deep Cleansing Makeup Removing Wipes. I got pack of several wipe packets from Costco for about $20 and using one every night to remove my makeup has been awesome. And, they're cheap. I think once I'm done with these ones though I'm going to try the Simple ones, because I like the moisturizer so much.

Nail polish! Something that I've been really into lately. One of my favourite colors for this year was Revlon's Minted. I was obsessed with mint green for the summertime. I also like Essie's Bikini So Teeny or Muchi Muchi for lighter colors. 

Okay, I've been growing my hair out, and I dye it now and again to pretend I'm a ginger. I've got to keep the dream alive, guys. So for a while I was using Dove shampoo but like any typical girl I like to switch it up. I'm getting more into organic, cruelty free beauty products, so I picked up some Coconut Milk shampoo and conditioner, with an anti-breakage serum for split ends to boot. So far this system has been doing well for me; my hair's shiny and while it's too early to tell if my split ends are "mending", I definitely like the feel of the products. Also, they smell amazing. Just like coconut cream pie!

Favourite body product or perfume. This is going to sound weird, but I have one for both. The body product is my Burts Bees coconut foot cream. Yes, it's foot cream. But honestly, I have super dry feet, and applying just a pea sized amount and rubbing it into my feet after a shower, then putting socks on to lock in the moisture, really helps. And again, it smells amazing! For perfume, I haven't really dabbled too much in that, but I have a body spray by The Body Shop which smells really good - it has a mango on the package, but I can't remember the name.

On to fashion!

Favourite clothing piece...hmm, let me think. I think I'd have to say leggings. In the spring-summer and summer-fall, I started wearing leggings under long shirts and short dresses. I just have simple ones right now, black and grey, but I have plans to get some lacy or otherwise patterned ones for under distressed jeans or maybe something burgandy ish for under a black dress or something. I'm not sure yet, but they're hella comfy, and that's what's important, right?

Accessories! I'm always game for earrings. They're a good way to show your personality without being too crazy. Especially for someone like myself, who works in a medical office. I don't have a particular pair that I like over another really. Just a good general favourite.

Pair of shoes...I'd have to go with my boots. They're functional and stylish, I guess? Lol.

Random! Possibly the best category and the one that will take the most thought.

Favourite TV show/movie is a tricky one. I discovered a few favourite tv shows by watching Netflix like it's going out of style. Usually I'd watch a show while sewing, or cleaning, or doing anything else. Once I start a show, I pretty much keep watching it until I run out of seasons or Netflix doesn't have any more episodes. First choice is Six Feet Under. Seriously. Look it up. This show is amazing. For movie, there were a lot of good movies this year. If I had seen Les Miserables yet, I'd probably choose that, but I haven't as it's not playing in my town yet! Argh. Usually the way to tell if a movie's good is if you make a point of going out and buying it when it's released on blu ray, or if you see it multiple times in theatres. I have two choices for the "movie" category. The first one is Rock Of Ages. I saw this in theatres, and then as soon as it was released on blu ray I bought it. I've since watched it another four times. It's just so good. Oh, and I bought the soundtrack on iTunes after I saw the movie. Second choice is Life of Pi. That movie was visually stunning, the story is awesome, and it really draws you in. It's one of those movies you go to and the theatre is packed but everyone is silent because they're just taking it all in. I fully intend to buy it when it's released. 

Favourite book. Okay, so I didn't read that much this year. I purchased a couple new books that I flew through, but other than that I didn't really read. I started Birth House, but never finished it. I read the 50 Shades of Grey trilogy, mostly because of all the hype about it. I wanted to actually read the books before I joined the conversation about the series. 

Food. Oh, jeez. This has to be mochas from Tim Hortons. We go every morning before work, and while I don't actually drink real coffee, and usually get a steeped tea, the mochas are just so good.

Beverage. Please refer to the previous question. Lol

Favourite song.This is probably going to be the hardest question, and I had a hard time narrowing down my favourite songs from this year. I have so many favourites, but I had to stick to stuff that was released within the year...because if I didn't, this would take way too long. First favourite is Kimbra's album Vows. Yes, the album. I can't choose just one song. I was obsessed with Settle Down, then Cameo Lover, then Good Intent, then Warrior. It's safer just to choose the whole album. Second is Big Freeze by Muse on their new album 2nd Law. This song. This song, the feels, oh my god. Third is Titanium by David Guetta and Sia. It's so good. I usually don't care for pop, but this is just too good. And last but not least, Out Of The Game by an old favourite, Rufus Wainwright. 

So there you have it! All my favourites for 2012, all rolled into one. Have a beautiful new year and I will see you in 2013. <3 

Madness

I can't stop listening to Muse's new album "The 2nd Law". Among my favourites are "Madness", "Panic Station", "Survival", "Follow Me", and "Big Freeze". If you haven't heard any of this yet, be sure to check it out. I've been a Muse fan for years. They just keep getting better and better!

Another note on the "madness" title besides being the title of Muse song - I have, once again, attempted a large change. This one I hope to stick with - we all know how the "vegetarian" phase ended, and the "exercise" phase. This time I'm going vegan. Yes.

It seems crazy right? I love cheese, I love milk, I love all the delicious things. But honestly, the way these animals are treated is just so awful. I'm trying to avoid justifying my guilt for eating this overprocessed, overdone bullshit we modern people call food. Of course, I wouldn't be me if I wasn't lazy, so I'm probably going to be the world's worst vegan ever. For instance, just today, I've already failed. I had a lindt chocolate with my lunch (which was granola with almond milk, btw). But I insisted my latte be made with soy milk and no whip, and honestly it didn't taste much different than the regular one with cow's milk. I think it's just a matter of substitution, and utilizing foods I already love. Like organic peanut butter, granola, and hummus. Also, I'll be eating a lot more veggies and fruit, and probably less processed sugars. I can see this becoming an obsession - and I hope it does. If I start obsessing over it, maybe I'll keep it up.

If you have netflix, watch "Vegucation" - a documentary about some people who sign up for an experiment - go vegan for 6 weeks, see the difference it makes, see what factory farmed animals go through, see what our food is made of. See if you'll remain a vegan after 6 weeks. 

You see, giving up the meat won't be the hard part. It'll be the dairy and eggs, I think. But I can survive without animal products! I will endeavour to do so.

Just a Little Bit's Enough

We....have a foster kitten.

Yes. He is incredibly cute. We have named him Karma. I'm not sure why...we entertained several names for him for almost two hours and settled on this. I think it fits since he's come from a bad situation and ended up in a good one. Well, it was a misunderstood situation. We'll call it that. It wasn't bad per se. It just wasn't ideal.

Now, I work at a vet hospital, and of course the first thing I'm going to do is bring this little 3 month old in for his first vaccines, dewormer, and flea treatment. Upon examination, the dr told me that he's not even close to being three months old. He's actually only 6 weeks. Poor little baby! So we gave him his dewormer and isolated him from the other pets in hospital, as they are all vaccinated, and he isn't. He wasn't even old enough for his first "shots"! So he has to go back in two weeks to get those and his flea treatment, as he isn't old enough for that either! And then, one of my technician coworkers mentioned to me that he sneezed up a bunch of snot and stuff from his nose. Oh, shit.

Suddenly he's a viral kitten. LOCKDOWN!

I'm kidding. It really isn't that big of a deal. I spoke to his dr about it when there was a quiet moment and he suggested giving him some anti-viral jelly to keep him from sneezing and keep that nasty kitty herpes from developing into something more serious. He's going to be sneezy for the rest of his life, but it's stress induced, so as long as he doesn't suffer a lot of stress, he shouldn't show any symptoms. As far as contagious goes, he's really not. His dr suggested isolation, but did tell me that if he does have this viral herpes thing that most kittens are born with, the only way it can infect my two cats is if he sneezes a bunch of crap into their nose or mouth. It was to be direct - the virus can't survive for long outside the body. So that's good news. Of course, he's been playing with my cats all weekend, and I've been taking blurry photos of them together with my little point and shoot because it's just so darn cute. Here's a sample!

With A Knife

I blame my roommate for this current obsession.

"Belief" - stripped version (Gavin Degraw)

I want to sing to this song, I want to listen to it on repeat, and enjoy it constantly. 

His voice is amazing!

I'll put the link to the youtube video down at the bottom of this post so you can listen to it too, if the mood strikes you.

I posted a couple pictures to my dA last night while I was bored. One of Timbit, our dog, a couple months ago when I asked her if she wanted to go for a walk - this was her face. <3

Also, I posted a picture of Phoenix chewing on my headphones. The little ginger troublemaker.

I'm also writing again - albeit slowly. I feel like I keep saying that. But this time I really mean it. I've been editing and refurbishing some stuff I wrote almost three years ago for my characters. His story is rather complicated, and rewriting it is a chore. But I'm hoping now that I'm getting back into it, I'll be able to make more sense of what's going on with the whole story and the characters.

I'll link a very old sampling of how this character's brain works, below, if you wanted to check it out. Of course it's copywrited.Keep in mind it's very old - published on dA back in 2008. This is not my writing style anymore.

Alright, I guess I'm done rambling. I'm really just bored.

 

 

"BELIEF" - Gavin Degraw:   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=duE9Di-_z30

DEVIANTART HOMEPAGE:  http://windfrost.deviantart.com/

TIMBIT: http://windfrost.deviantart.com/#/d5ljtr3

PHOENIX: http://windfrost.deviantart.com/#/d5ljugk

THYLER SAMPLE: http://windfrost.deviantart.com/gallery/9518996?offset=24#/d1muq5p

Some Actual Updates This Time

For once I am actually going to write something that means something. 

HAH, got ya.

No, I'm just going to rant about my life like I always do on this pointless blog. 

I am currently enjoying a surprise day off due to a phone call 15 minutes before I was due to start work this morning from my boss who said it wasn't worth it to come in today, as there were only a few appointments, and it wouldn't make sense to have three of us bored with nothing to do. So yay, surprise three day weekend! I'm excited because I never get three day weekends. The three day weekend usually happens on Monday, which is my regular day off, since I usually work Tuesday-Saturday. So it works out, I get paid for a day off, but that doesn't change the fact that I have a normal weekend and not a long one like everyone else.

We spent the morning cleaning the house, organizing things, vaccuming and swiffering, doing laundry and cleaning the kitchen. Our house is now fresh smelling and full of clean. It's lovely, but rare.

We are hermits in the house today - we went out just in the morning for milk, greek yogurt, and croissants. The essentials, you know? Also, there's white wine in the fridge for later, so why leave the house? We have buttery pastry, wine, and the makings for eternal cups of tea. It's not often that we get two full days off together. I think after the past three weekends jam packed with stuff, we're just gonna kick back and enjoy the relaxing. 

Also, a certain someone's convinced me to try her online world, Guild Wars 2, which I bought her for her brithday in April, even though it was just realeased a couple of months ago. I preordered it so she could play it a few days before the rest of the world who waited until the release date. I am currently waiting for it to download on my computer, and am probably going to do nothing but spend lots of time creating my own characters on it, then running around pointlessly. I'm not really big on these kinds of games, but she is, so I said I'd give it a shot. There's no harm in trying, is there?

In the world of health, I rank a 5.6. Yes, there's the usual culprits - but recently, my cheek and just the side of my face in general have been giving me trouble. It's been determined that my wisdom teeth have decided that I am no longer a child and that they need to make an appearance. Painfully. 

I'm now petrified that I'll need to have surgery or something, to have them taken out, and because I'm a wimp, I will have some kind of panic attack and die. 

Yes, I am a huge wuss when it comes to medical stuff, especially when I know I won't be aware of what's happening when it's happening. I like to be aware of my surroundings at all times.

Anyway, I'm going to go play this game, and we'll see how that goes. See ya~ 

No brainpower, and pain.

Okay, kind of being a dork here. The other day I took this one photo, and decided I liked the way half my face looked.

 I am posting photos because I'm bored. Lol

So I cropped it, went into an online photo editor, and put a cloud overlay over it.

Then I made it black and white but kept the color in my eye.

Then I cropped it even more, and put a peeling wallpaper overlay over it. (this would be my favourite).

And the same photo, again, with tree overlay.

A Nuuble bein' all cute.

Cute festive pumpkin arrangement

Flower <3

Another questions tag

I stumbled upon this list of questions (yes, on StumbleUpon)...and I thought, why not?

1. Ever broken any bones? How about rules?

Yes, I have broken my arm when I was a kid. I tried to "fly" off a bookcase and landed terribly. "It's not the fall that hurts you, it's the sudden stop at the end." As far as rules go, who hasn't?

2. What are three things about you that you wouldn't want me to know?

Number 1....I can't think of anything. I'm bad like that.

Number 2....I'm kind of a lazyass.

Number 3....I secretly love pop music.

3. What is your favourite food color?

Red, because you can dye anything with red food coloring and make it look dramatic.

4. Do you sleep through thunder and lightening?

Usually, unfortunately. 

5. Are you a dog or cat person?

I have two cats, but I grew up with dogs, and I want a dog too. So I guess...both?

6. What is the single feature people compliment you on the most?

My eyes (does that count as a double feature?)

7. Are you scared of spiders?

EIGHT LEGGED FREAKS.

8. What is your biggest fear, except for spiders?

Heights, falling, death, pain, the dark, axe murderers, stalkers, the list goes on...

9. What is your most favourite part of the day?

Coming home from work, knowing I can relax now.

10. Ever had an imaginary friend as a child?

No, but I used to see ghosts.

11. Ever been in an accident?

No.

12. Have you ever stolen from a store or from someone?

meh.

13. What are your turn ons and turn offs?

I am so not answering that.

14. Are you a morning person?

I am a sleeping person.

15. What are your most favourite and least favourite foods?

Most favourite: anything delicious. Least favourite: mushrooms, onions, anything nasty.

16. Name the one piece of clothing you can't live without. 

My jeans? 

17. Do you have tattoos or piercings? If so, how many and where?

Piercings: 2; 1 in each ear.

18. What was your least favourite subject in school?

PE. 

 

19. Do you take showers in the morning or night more?

Night.

 

20. What are the three most important things in your life?

A special someone

My cats

My family

Halloween and Photo Roll

HALLOWEEN! And a grumpy face mr man.

I hate the flash.

So does Phoenix!

Why are all these people coming to our door, mum?

I quite like this one!

I stole a hat! (it was part of my roommate's fox costume)

Peeking!

Why are my ears down? :P

Handsome boy

I am a sad Nuuble. I don't know why I can't get past this glass

It's Halloween again, and I'm a cat again. Ah, c'est la vie.

Peanut Brittle. I started doing this "30 day photo challenge (FAILED MAJORLY, I might add)" and used this for the "candy" day.

A LOG! :D

Hi Muffin way over there!

Because I love these kinds of photos. Not sure why.

Fail

It's been over a year since I started on this "new" "daily" blog thing, and I haven't gotten any views that aren't my own, and haven't gotten any comments. LOL Fail.

SMQ (10)

1. 91. Who is the person that you feel most altered the course of your morals and values, and how did they affect you?
   Obviously, that has to be my best friend, favourite model, roommate, and partner in crime. She's my whole world. 
   92.  Where do you see yourself, so far as your goals, personal development, or job, in 5 years, and how do you plan to arrive at this destination?
   Okay, so I just posted this rant about angst on this blog, you can go and read that if you want a background of where I'm at for all this right now. As for in 5 years...goal wise, I want to be somewhere. I want to be doing something worthwhile. I want to mean something to somebody. I want a house, a dog, a baby, and I'd be satisfied still working at the vet, but at a higher pay than I'm making right now (if I was to have a child, after all).  Personal development...a baby, a better body, clear skin. Whatever. Job, I just answered that. To arrive at this destination...I guess I just have to be better at everything. We'll see how that goes. 
   93. What is your earliest, or happiest, memory?
   My earliest memory is of my mom putting my first birthday cake in front of me. I still remember it as a yellow cake with white frosting and strawberries. I have some pictures of this event - ironically, I am the only one of my siblings who didn't just take fistfuls of cake and smush them in my face (at least there's no photos to prove that I did!). 
   94. Which amendment of the constitution is most important to you, and why?
   I live in Canada. *snicker*
   95. Is speech always free? When and where might it not be free?
   Is speech always free? I suppose. Was it always free? No, definitely not. When might it not be? A courtroom is the only thing that comes to mind, haha. That damn judge will always cut you off!
   96. Put yourself in Anne Frank's place. Would you have survived?
   Oh god, probably not. I'm such a coward I would have been caught right away.
   97. If you witnessed a fight at school would you report it? What would be the repercussions if you told the truth?
   I usually tried to stay away from fights that took place at school. And really, the teachers found out about it pretty fast, because kids were always running through the school trying to get more kids to come out and watch, so there was a resounding chorus of "FIGHT! FIGHT!" echoing through the halls when something like this happened. It rarely needed to be reported. If I was a witness and was asked to recount what happened, I'm sure I'd tell the truth, because it wouldn't make a difference to me. Usually if some students witness something like this, they aren't questioned or anything. And if they were, it'd probably be anonymous, so as far as repercussions go, the other students might look at you like a "snitch", but you wouldn't be in the wrong.
   98. What will be the first thing you do when you get your driver's license?
   Depends on what license you're talking about. Here in BC, when you pass your first test, you get your Learner's, which gives you a year to learn everything (either with a paid teacher in a class, or by your parents/guardian etc), and then you take your test for your Novice license. The Learner allows you a year to learn the rules of the road, how to do different turns, etc. You have to drive with someone who's 25 or older with a valid driver's license. When you pass your Novice test, you are on this for 2 years, and you can drive by yourself, one other person, or as many family members as you like. So if I had my Learner's, the first thing I'd do is ask my mom to teach me. She taught my sister, and my sister's a good driver. I'd also get tips from my roommate who has had her N for almost a year now. If I had my Novice, the first thing I'd do is take my roommate and I for a spin together. That's what she did when she passed. We just drove around town for the sake of being able to. It's such a freedom. I'm thinking of going for my L test soonish. Driving is not something I'm really into, but it's good to know how in case of emergency. 
   99. What would you do if you woke up one morning with a tail?
   Depends on what type of tail! I'd probably have to figure out someway to hide it in my clothing.
   10. How would you react if you found out you were to be the first child in space?
   First, I'm not a child. Second, I'd be scared shitless. I can barely fly in a plane without having a panic attack!
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   

(Almost) Teenage Angst

I'm stuck.

I wonder why I can't seem to figure out what to do with my life. Some days I feel the initiative to sign up for some online English course (as writing is  my true passion), sometimes it's photography, sometimes I want to look back at my "work" and sob for how painfully pathetic it all is. Sometimes I think I'm good - most of the time, though, I look at what other people put out, and I feel so unimportant, insignificant, unseen. I wish I could be confidently proud of something. 

Some days, I think that being a mother would be my calling. I dream of pregnancy. I dream of a little one that's part of me. I dream of all these things, and then I remember that I'm working a job that might collapse at any time, and that no one in their right mind will ever get me pregnant, because who wants to mix with bad genes? The only guy who ever found me attractive was too immature to realize that maybe I'm a little more than "fun and games"...and it didn't help that my heart still belonged to someone else the whole time. I really did think I was ready to try with someone new. For the most part I enjoyed being with him...he was fun, he was romantic, but like I said before, he was immature, and he was skin deep. He was, all in all, a mistake. 

I wish that I could be beautiful, skinny, attractive, witty. I think these things constantly. The point is though, that I am too depressed, too lazy, too angsty to do anything about it. Just when I start "dieting" or "exercising" I end up falling into the same hole. It's like I can't stop. I'm addicted to being lazy and eating crap food. I know better. This is what gets me - I  know better, and I still do it. I drink mocha's every morning. I have junk on a daily basis. I know bagels are bad for me and I eat them all the time anyway. I know junk food is bad and in the grocery store we usually leave with something along those lines...yes we try to be better (we're eating more fruit/vegetables all the time now), but in the end it's convenience. I hate cooking, and while it's fun in it's own time, when I work 8 hours and don't get home until 6 I don't want to cook! I still have to shower so by then it's 6:30, and all I want is to pull something easy out of the fridge. We have all the fixings - brown rice, fusilli pasta, fruit, vegetables, frozen berries...yes, we do have some staple healthy foods. But really I don't think I understand the concept of "healthy". My coworker, skinny as a stick, is gluten-intolerant so she can only eat veggies and stuff. Sometimes I think it'd be easier for me if I absolutely COULDN'T eat these things. 

Besides this angst, there's also the money angst. I have enough to pay my bills and have extra for mocha's every day and occasional things that I don't need to have (like makeup, junk food, etc). For some reason, with the wonderful credit card debt, I keep having this pressing feeling that I'm forgetting to pay something, and then I remember that my cell phone bill is due in 5 days, or that I'm almost in overdraft, or that my loan from the bank isn't actually paid off yet (almost!). I don't know why, but it seems I have more plans than I have money. I need to sock more away into savings than I am. I think what I lack in general is discipline. When I see things in stores I just want to BUY all the time. >.< I'm such a consumer. Sigh.

OKAY...that's enough angst I think...I'll update if I suddenly know what I'm doing with my life, but I think for now I'll have to keep working my butt off and being lazy. Maybe get a dog. I don't know.

Music, Drama, Amanda Todd, and other things

MUSIC! 

We've been playing the music channel at work in the background lately so I've had a song or two stuck in my head that I absolutely needed to download. I'll list them at the end so you can discover them too. Some are new, some I've known of for a while and haven't remembered to download.

There has been so much drama at work lately. I won't go into details, but big changes are happening, and I'll be honest, I'm nervous about the whole thing, because if certain staff aren't "safe", neither am I. Sigh. Well, this coming week will be very interesting, and we'll see if my worst fears will come to realization. I'm really hoping not.

I'm sure if you haven't been living under a rock for the past few days, you know the story of Amanda Todd, the girl who killed herself because she was being brutally bullied and stalked by a cyberpredator. The poor thing was only 15 years old. If you have been under a rock, I'll give you a quick rundown: she took some nude photos on a webcam for a stranger on one of those sites akin to Omegle or Chatroulette. The stranger kept the photo and sent it to all her friends/family members. She moved schools a couple times but he continued his stalking and posting photos. He made a facebook page with her photos on it, etc. Eventually the kids at school bullied her horribly and she found the only way out was to kill herself. It's incredibly sad...but there's so much internet bitching about how "everyone cares about this one girl, but not about the countless others who have had this happen to them too". The point with Amanda Todd is the fact that she made a video sharing her story, it went viral after she killed herself, and now they're using her as an example of what cyberbulling can do to someone. Example is not a happy word when it comes to a child killing herself, but that's exactly what the public is doing. I'm neither for them or against them. I am simply sad that it happened, and I'm getting on with life like the rest of the world. I just felt I needed to share something about her. 

Sometimes, when Phoenix is being a little shit, I wonder why I didn't get a dog instead of a kitten. I miss having a dog. I love dogs, I love being able to take them places with you, I love walking them, I love playing with them. I love everything about them, really. I think the only issue is the time thing. I don't have time for a dog. Yes, I could make excuses, but the point of it is, by the time I spend 8 hours at work (sometimes more), I've been up since 6:30 am, I don't want to go out in the evening. All I want to do is have some dinner, take a shower, and relax until I have to go to bed to get up for the next day. So I guess the real reason I don't have a dog is that I'm lazy. I don't know. I think if I had a dog rather than a cat, I'd be out more. I'd have to!

Don't get me wrong, I love Phoenix more than possibly any other animal in my life. He's my first real pet, my first true companion animal just for me. We've had family pets, of course, but they're not just MINE. Phoenix is, and always will be, my baby. I chose him from just a few days old, and I had him all to myself from 5 weeks. He and his brother Anubis are the best choice I ever made (though sometimes I do regret it, and they get on my nerves, and I wish I hadn't chosen them). They're incredibly special to me. If anything ever happened to Phoenix I'd be a wreck! Despite his annoying nature, his need to wake me up BEFORE my alarm goes off, his scratching everything, jumping on the counter, eating my food, chewing my hair...he's my baby, and I'll love him forever. 

In other news, orange juice is delicious, and kind of an obsession. 

Alright, I think I need to be done for now. :P

DEVIANTART: http://windfrost.deviantart.com

OF MONSTERS AND MEN - "LITTLE TALKS" -  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghb6eDopW8I

MAROON 5 - "ONE MORE NIGHT" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwK7ggA3-bU

FABER DRIVE - "CANDY STORE" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HBfqR3JPLeI

OWL CITY/CARLY RAE JEPSEN - "GOOD TIME" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HBfqR3JPLeI

PINK - "BLOW ME ONE LAST KISS" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jNlIGDRkvQ

PINK - "JUST GIVE ME A REASON" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gwx4iTRLXG8

TRAIN - "50 WAYS TO SAY GOODBYE" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GSBFehvLJDc

HEDLEY - "KISS YOU INSIDE OUT" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ksrFRkA8J4w

FUN. - "WE ARE YOUNG" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sv6dMFF_yts

MATCHBOX TWENTY - "SHE'S SO MEAN" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-8WLa6umgdw

MUMFORD & SONS - "LITTLE LION MAN" - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLJf9qJHR3E

Some More Pictures

Hot chocolate mix, cinnamon, hot water, skim milk, whipped cream, chocolate drizzle, cinnamon. Mmm.

So delicious.

Warm berry oatmeal - add oats to bowl.

Add boiling water.

Add berries of your choice - I heated up some frozen blueberries and raspberries in the microwave, then added them to the oatmeal.

Top with milk, a bit of brown sugar, and cinnamon. Perfect!

I haven't been on in a while

It's true.

I really haven't posted in a while. Mur.

Pictures, because more requires brainpower, and it's been a busy weekend.

I never get tired of Pheeny feet.

Candle!

Nuuble looks like he wants to murder the candle.

So does Pheeny.

Pretty flower things at the Spit.

Flower!

My favourite model. AKA my roommate and best friend in the world. Lookin so cute.

Nanaimo Trip and Shopping Goodies

A few things I picked up in Nanaimo this weekend when we were there visiting my sister:

2 BBW candles (Apple Crumble and Pineapple Mango)

Rose balm...I don't know what the brand name is but it really smells like roses!

Cotton nightie and a soft pink housecoat from La Vie En Rose...

Some earrings from Icing By Claires

China Glaze nail polishes in 3 colors...a hot pink, electric blue, and silver glitter (came in a set) 

Patterned box for our nail polish collection

I don't know why it felt important to share this. Maybe because secretly I wish I could be one of those bloggers/youtubers who do nothing but buy countless things and then tell everyone about it. 

 Meh. Home now happy to be relaxing...didn't get much sleep last night as we slept on the floor of my sister's dorm...pretty uncomfortable. :/

 

Your Eyes Could Make Water Flammable

Hi!

So I recently bought a song on iTunes and now it only plays halfway through, then stops and goes to the next song! It's called "Dangerous Girl" by Jay Loftus, and it's addictive, I am warning you right now. His voice is so lovely it's almost like I could fall into it. Yes. I'm a music whore, okay?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WQLzIZmCLQU&feature=BFa&list=PL271E36B43B08CE92&shuffle=349869

Just listen to it and you'll see what I mean.

Anyway, I've been told by the iTunes support people to download iCloud and delete the song then get the "new" version off iCloud. I don't know what this means but I'm going to try. 

I am currently backing up all my music to "the cloud"...We'll see. 

That's pretty much all I have. Just needed to rant about not being able to listen to this amazing song besides on youtube. *cry*

CIMH

I seriously really have to share this video somewhere.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5eDQdYIqhbE&feature=g-u-u

KIMBRA, one of my newly favourite artists, just released her newest music video for the song Come Into My Head...I love this song and I'm so glad she went with the whole "psychiatric" feel to this video. Oh my goodness I can't stop watching it!!

In other news, our little foster ferrets are happy, have a good bill of health and will be going to their permanent home today! I'm so relieved!!

SMQ (9)

81. What situation has recently caused you to question your ethics, and why?

I don't know...

82. If you had to sacrifice one of your senses, what would you choose and why?

I have to approach this from a comparison angle. For example, I'd rather be deaf than blind. I'd rather have no sense of smell than no sense of taste. If I had to choose one sense to lose....I guess I'd choose scent? I mean, it wouldn't be the same, but it'd be better than being blind or something. 

83. What about a goal makes you most likely to procrastinate?

Mostly the fact that it takes work. I never accomplish anything because I procrastinate because I don't want to do it. XD;

84. What would it be like to be in a tornado?

I'd imagine it'd be terrifying. I imagine the movie Twister, and I imagine either being in a storm cellar with my family/friends or whatever, or being stuck against the side of a flimsy building just hoping that it didn't come my way (like in the movie). 

85. Where would you go to relax, and why?

When I get home I usually just chill on the couch and watch a movie or sew or something. Its incredibly calming to go for a walk along the ocean or in the woods, though. I also love wandering around stores with friends.

86. How do you make ice cream?

When I was in grade 9 our teacher had a bunch of ice cream machines and we made the base then poured it in and waited for it to freeze. The machines spin around and make a lot of noise to make the ice cream perfectly...it tasted way better than anything you can buy somewhere.

87. Why does the ocean have a tide?

Because of the moon!

88. Who has more power? The government or the people?

Depends on your situation. If it's your average day, the government pretty much controls everything. If, however, the people decided to strike, they can usually make a difference. I don't know...I'm not up on politics, nor do I want to be. I don't have any real interest in it.

89. Did you recently have a really interesting conversation?

I don't know about really interesting...I recently talked to my mom, but that's just your average phone call. 

90. What is a scary dream that you remember from your past?

It involved a red piece of string that choked people by laying across people's throats and strangling them to death. I remember watching it crawl like an inchworm into my parents bedroom and my mom woke me up, said I was screaming. I don't remember how old I was.

A (perhaps silly) choice, provided I actually stick with it

I was recently in my local Walmart and noticed several of the brands there in the beauty section are cruelty free. I've decided, provided I can keep said brands in my memory and I can make sure to actually follow through, to go cruelty free with my makeup/skincare/haircare etc. I've already made a start in a way; the most recent things I've purchased have been cruelty free without me knowing it. I don't intend to go vegan or anything, I just kind of want to stop purchasing those brands that test on animals. Why purchase those brands when there's so many good ones that don't? Even drugstore stuff! I mean....I have some of their products already and I have to say, besides my Maybelline Color Tattoo's and my CG mascara, they've got to be my favourites. Like NYX - their eyeliners have got to be the best I've found so far. And Hard Candy? Their primer works better than the Revlon one, in my opinion, and it's cheaper, and cruelty free! Physician's Formula, which I haven't tried, is less expensive then Revlon or CG, even Maybelline, and they are cruelty free too. So really it won't be that hard. 

I tried a while back going vegetarian, which didn't really work, but I find that I do eat less meat than I used to, and I'm more careful about what kinds of food I order say in a restaurant, because if I'm given the choice between fettucinne alfredo and a burger, I'm probably always going to choose the pasta. I of course, indulge like the average person, and enjoy a good burger now and then, but I find it's when my body is really, REALLY craving it, and then I know that maybe I have low iron or something and that's why I'm needing it. In which case, I do indulge, because what's life without the little things, and why not, once in a while? I'll be honest, I shouldn't eat crap like that because I am overweight and I shouldn't be eating shit that continues to feed that overweightness. Is that a word..? It is now! Anyway....what I'm trying to say is I know better. Sometimes though, I just can't help myself, and really, once in a while is not so bad. Yes, on an average day I try to eat right, or well at least, and usually don't eat that much. I do feed my caffeine addiction with London Fogs, mochas, teas, lattes...but doesn't every working class individual? Coffee is the backbone of most people's lives. It's a good thing. It's actually been proven that it helps regulate digestion etc. 

And yes, I should exercise more, but it's hard when you're a manic depressive and when you get home from an 8-9 hour work day (depending) you don't want to do anything else. I really should get out there and do some walks or something. I play Just Dance now and again. xD;

I was looking through my old posts and realized that I used to end each post with a picture, a song, and a quote. I'm going to start that up again, though maybe it'll be just be a lyric instead of a song, or a photo instead of a quote, whatever. I'll end the post with something, anyway.

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aAx7tfe3ekw

For today, here's a song I've recently been loving. My favourite line is "I'm just a puppet in my own play."

SMQ (8)

71. What do you think about when you're falling asleep?

Depends on the day. Say, if I've been drinking, I usually just go to sleep, no problems, no questions asked. If it's an average weeknight, I usually calculate mentally the number of hours of sleep I'll get before waking up for work the next day. Sometimes I think about the day I just had, sometimes I think about last night's dream, sometimes I'm waiting for my cats to calm down and settle so I can actually get to sleep. Usually I sleep with one arm under the pillow and the other wrapped around something, so finding a comfortable position isn't exactly easy; sometimes I am thinking that I am uncomfortable. It depends on the day.

72. What is the most beautiful thing you've ever seen?

A certain someone's completely blissful, happy, genuine smile.

73. What is your favourite thing to do outdoors? Why?

My favourite thing lately has been taking the camera and wandering around in the forest, on the beach, along the trail...anywhere beautiful and natural, and taking photos of anything that strikes my creative bones. 

74. What would you write in a letter that you could send back to yourself as a teenager?

Considering I was still technically a teenager last year, this one won't be so easy. 

Dear teenage me,

This is your twenty-year-old self. I want you to know that even though your high school years weren't the best, to cherish them and the time spent with all your friends, because once you graduate, you'll hardly see any of them, and if you do, it's once or twice a year. I also want you to know that I regret not staying in piano till the bitter end (meaning, grade 8 piano), as seeing our sister's success in it made us insanely jealous. Never leave the one that loves you best. Come March 2013, it could have been five years. But I'm proud of you. While you feel that no one sees you, I am proud of you, and love you. Keep going, and you'll be rewarded.

75. What would you write in a letter you could send forward to yourself in ten years?

Dear 30 year old me,

I hope that you've made something of yourself. I wonder if you decided to become an author, or if you're a vet tech, or if you're still a receptionist. I wonder if you're a mother, as you always wanted to be. I wonder if you're married, where you're living. I wonder if you're still in lousy Campbell River working behind a desk. Granted, I love our job, but I hope that at 30 you are making something better of yourself. It's odd to think one day I'll be 30. Hey, maybe I'll get hit by a van at 21, and I'll never see 30. But I am assuming you'll still be chubby, baby-faced, making no progress. I sincerely hope not. If we have a daughter, please name her perfectly, and if we have a son, you know what to do. I hope that our child(ren) is/are beautiful, and that their father (?) will love them to no end. I hope Phoenix and Anubis are still there and they're lovely older men. I wonder if they'll ever settle down? I'm sure whatever life you live is where we want to be, and I trust you.

76. When did you first realize that one day you would be old, and someday, die?

I honestly don't remember. I was probably young.

77. Describe what it was like to fall in love.

Oh boy. This one's going to be good....okay. The first time, it was easy. Effortless. I fell in love with my best friend; we already knew each other inside and out, we were intricately connected on a deep level that only friendship can give you. We were inseperable...still are, really. The second time...it was painful, because I loved two at once. Why did my heart think I could take that? So I left the first to pursue the second, thinking that this was what I wanted. When he left me, I went back to the first, despite the rule that states never going back to exes. There are a couple other stories in between, but the end fact is that falling in love is hard, it's easy, it's painful, and it's wonderful! It's something everyone needs to experience at least once, and if nothing else, the pain lets you know that you're still alive, and that you're still something that's real, something that feels. Sometimes it can feel like you're losing yourself in the other person. I have to assume this happens to everyone...

78.Explain how you chose your career path.

When I was a kid I always wanted to be a vet. When I needed a job, a couple of years ago now, my friend pointed out the dog boarding ad and, desperate, I applied that day. The manager seemed to like me but they went through a couple other applicants before finally hiring me. I worked in boarding for 8 months until it shut down, then they kept me in grooming to cover another lady's vacation to China, and halfway through, one of their receptionists took sick and was going to be off for six months, so they offered me her position. In January, it was determined she wasn't coming back, so I was made permanent, and have since been working happily up front. It's kind of a funny thing that I wanted to be a vet as a child and now I work with them. I work in the treatment room too, so I get to be alongside the doctors and help them out. It's fun, exhausting, nerveracking, but I'm getting better, and it's good. I'm happy there.

79. When have you realized you were really wrong in your judgement of someone?

I don't know...I don't really judge people..if I can help it. It's hard to judge people based on anything really, but like everyone else I'm not perfect, I'm sure I've made a wrong judgement of someone, I just don't remember an instance at this time.

80. How do you react when you've made a mistake?

Usually I feel like shit, especially if it's something important. Like, leaving air bubbles in the IV line accidentally, or forgetting to turn something off, or leaving the door open. 

Pictures? PICTURES!

So I haven't done some photos in a while...mostly because our fancy on-loan camera went back to its owner so we haven't been getting out there and getting creative behind the lens. However, we did acquire some foster ferrets and wandered about today. So there are pictures indeed!

 Testing! Trying out my old camera again after a shower the other day, wanting to see how it stacked up to the newer, nicer one. Not bad, but I definitely prefer the focus on the other one...and the zoom!